Continuing To Grow Beyond Mistakes - 234

A lot has happened. I don't feel I have the liberty to speak to all the details but suffice it to say I had a lapse in judgement, morals and ethics and conducted myself very poorly and hurt multiple people. I don't know that I've always done the best with accountability or making amends after having wronged someone. This isn't so much a lack of desire to do so, but a lack of effective skills navigating that chasm. So with fresh eyes and increased awareness of how my actions effect other people I start new for me and focus my gaze forward in life instead of dwelling in my misery. 

I've recently started to develop faith and confidence in myself again. I am not sure if it's misplaced... Because when I betray someone else I betray myself as well though.

I'm terrible at drawing lines in the sand. They're not very many rules that I think that I hold completely steadfast. I think part of it comes from trying to be adaptable but unfortunately to a fault. Some things don't have to adapt to circumstances. Some circumstances just aren't for me. 

I've discussed holding boundaries many times and candidly this conversation holds the same essence. That our pace is preserved from instilling boundaries and it is eventually sacrificed when we do not.

This road ahead won't be easy, as going at it alone is pretty new to me. But I'm learning to embrace unknown as it feels to me that's the only place growth ever resides and I'm committed to becoming a better person.