Fresh beginning - 203

 8:08 AM

Maybe this will be enough to have peace from harassment.

I took the time to try and plan out my day. Like a regular recurring schedule? Yeah, not the easiest thing to commit to. I woke up today with two things for the first hour. 30 minutes to wake up and orient myself and hydrate, followed by thirty minutes of of walking for physical activity to get my blood flowing and mind moving. Coffee is arranged after this first hour, however. I didn't nail it.

I woke up. The time I allowed for waking was about right I think. I had time to review my sleep app from last night. But instead of walking I started coffee, finished pouring a cup and have sat to write. I do feel a minor win here as I am not scrolling through my phone. I avoided my walk because it was very cold out.

11:38 AM

I return to writing after organizing some stuff, brushing my teeth and shaving. I have missed writing and even if today is a simple entry it is good return to some sense of normalcy.

I have to work today and tomorrow and I'm off Wednesday for my therapy. 

Monday is always a nice day because my spotify discover playlist refreshes and I get new tunes. It has been hella reliable after building up a like list over 3200 songs deep. 

I have followed my schedule fairly well and hope I continue to improve. Who knows I might be the next Immanuel Kant! 

It is going to take me 6 years for my current life plan. It is going to involve extensive education and effort. The end result will be my own practice ; I will be able to write prescriptions, do intake evaluations, and provide therapy to my clients. I can do this independently or develop a practice with a team. Either way about it, my salary is projected to be $117,000 for the low end, with the top side of the profession stretching over $160,000. I feel that this should be an income that is should be enough to provide for a stable life.

I'm excited for the potential of this for me, as I've struggled for many years with a very menial income. The idea of being able to provide for a family is not just socially responsible it has always been a true core desire of mine. It feels good to give myself credit that I can realize my dreams. I guess this is kinda like what it is to be believing in yourself independent of what anyone else has to say. :)

Breathe deeply, Sleep sweetly... and Dream fucking big. <3